I really don't know why....
why do it really?
everyone has their motivation
as to why they do it
wanting to share with friends and family
wanting to reflect
(but why do it publicly?)
wanting to share their life in the hopes
it may encourage others
self gratification
humble brags (my new fav:)
why do I?
at this point,
I am not sure at all
I need to know why I do
what I do
in order to push on
and go forward
but at this point
I can't find good reason for my writings here
they all seem too self-centered
I try and think my words are helpful to someone?
encouraging
hopeful
practical
I have so much to say
so much to express
I can't stand small talk
it feels like I am drowning
I need meaty conversations
I need to know people
who they are
why they do what they do
otherwise I can't make anything make sense
things seem so meaningless to me
when conversations can't go deeper than
your workout at the gym
your next manicure
appointment
what you bought today
and so on......
I just shut off
pathetic of me?
not tolerant enough of me?
life is too short to not talk about
the heart of who we are
what we are learning
in our daily lives
how we are growing
or how we want to grow
what are our struggles
and how are we dealing with them
where is our hope
who are we
so, this blog
which originally started as a place
where I shared recent photography session images
which turned more personal as
I started stepping back from photography
but now find my self unsure as to why
continue
why do it really?
everyone has their motivation
as to why they do it
wanting to share with friends and family
wanting to reflect
(but why do it publicly?)
wanting to share their life in the hopes
it may encourage others
self gratification
humble brags (my new fav:)
why do I?
at this point,
I am not sure at all
I need to know why I do
what I do
in order to push on
and go forward
but at this point
I can't find good reason for my writings here
they all seem too self-centered
I try and think my words are helpful to someone?
encouraging
hopeful
practical
I have so much to say
so much to express
I can't stand small talk
it feels like I am drowning
I need meaty conversations
I need to know people
who they are
why they do what they do
otherwise I can't make anything make sense
things seem so meaningless to me
when conversations can't go deeper than
your workout at the gym
your next manicure
appointment
what you bought today
and so on......
I just shut off
pathetic of me?
not tolerant enough of me?
life is too short to not talk about
the heart of who we are
what we are learning
in our daily lives
how we are growing
or how we want to grow
what are our struggles
and how are we dealing with them
where is our hope
who are we
so, this blog
which originally started as a place
where I shared recent photography session images
which turned more personal as
I started stepping back from photography
but now find my self unsure as to why
continue
Robynn, I long for the same type of conversation. So many around me are into the small talk...and I find myself like you, I shut off. Maybe we should hang out sometime....you let me know the time and place and we could make it work. My home is always open ;)
ReplyDeleteSally shared so many things at her conference, I have a hard time summing it up when people ask. All I know is she is an inspiring mama to women of all walks and stages with their kids. So much to learn from and gain insight. I would love to chat with you about the ideals it seems you and I are both working on at this stage in our lives.
Hugs,
Kathy